Self-Compassion

February 14, 2019April 2, 2019Leave a comment

Compassion is to “suffer with” someone; showing kindness, empathy and understanding. Self-Compassion is when we extend that same kindness & empathy to ourselves when we are suffering. It is acknowledging that “this is really hard right now” and giving yourself permission to feel & seek comfort.

One way that I practice self-compassion in the midst of illness & suffering is to take some slow, deep breaths and say to myself,

“May I know peace,

May I know love,

May I know joy,

May I know grace,

May I know forgiveness,

May I know acceptance.”

All these mercies, God lavishes upon us through the love of Jesus. So, when showing kindness to myself seems impossible, I can remember how God looks at me and my suffering. I accept His compassion and extend it to myself. As a result, it can lower distress and increase my emotional well-being.

Why don’t you give it a go today?

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September 25, 2018Leave a comment

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Why,

why does this day,

that marks my introduction to this world

elevate itself above all others?

I do wish,

I wish this was reality –

that when the clock strikes midnight

on this day, life suddenly magical.

It’s as if,

as if, suddenly, I am happy –

as if, suddenly, I am glad to be alive –

as if, suddenly, I don’t resent this day.

Why is today happy?

Why is today good?

Why must I celebrate the day I abhor?

If a birthday was going to help my mental illness – I would have been cured before it even started.

Self-Care Day!

April 12, 2018Leave a comment

Self care is so important & Henry agrees… so we are spending the morning at home, drinking Choc Mint tea from a beautiful pot and cup, watching Netflix and doing some art.

Never forget to practice self-compassion and look after yourself.

Happy Easter

April 1, 2018Leave a comment

Henry is wishing you a happy easter!!! As he celebrates Jesus rising from the dead, he is also thinking about his own resurrected body – and it’s pretty awesome!

Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice so we can have hope! Come Lord Jesus, come!

Meet Henry

March 29, 20182 Comments

Meet Henry.

I created him at an Access Arts workshop. He has a depressive disorder & FND. He also loves pink flowers, art, the theatre, chocolate, going on adventures and talking about uncomfortable but important issues.

Keep an eye out for his fun adventures – he’s just taken a trip to space to spread awareness & break stigma about mental illness across the galaxy.

You’re alive. You’ve survived. You got this.”

March 22, 20182 Comments

While I was looking at the 5kgs I put on during my 5 week hospital stay and thinking about the fact I had been in a mental hospital for 5 weeks, I was beating myself up… but then that small, kind compassionate voice reminded me, “you’re alive. You’ve survived. You got this.”

If you’re in recovery be kind to and nurture yourself. Remember; you’re alive. You’ve survived. You can do this.

Fun Fact: Hospital Disharge

March 20, 20185 Comments

‘Fun’ Fact: when you are discharged from hospital, they don’t expect you to leave “well” and ready to fully engage in normal life, as it was before you were unwell. They wait until you’ve made a change in direction, lasting a few days to show you’re moving toward wellness.

I was so surprised when my Psychiatrist told me that’s how it is. So, I leave the psychiatric hospital, returning home tomorrow and I am excited, thrilled and a little bit apprehensive. I’m feeling better than I was 5 weeks ago, but I am not where you may expect me to be in my recovery – I am not yet “well.” The real test will see how I am going in 6 months time.

If someone you love is being discharged from hospital, they need your love and support to adjust back into life, slowly. Realise they’ve just left a safe, regulated environment, where they didn’t have to cook, clean or work. Leaving can be scary.

So maybe offer to clean their toilet, cook a meal, do some dishes, a load of washing or bring over some groceries. Be a legend.

Remember there will be more good days than before, but don’t be surprised when their are bad ones. Remember that and be a legend.

Be patient, be kind, be empathetic, be thoughtful, be compassionate – show love and genuine care. Be a legend! It will be worth it as you see your loved one become more and more ‘themselves’ again.

So, please, be a legend and lower your expectations. They’re still ‘getting better,’ just in a different environment, at home, hopefully with lots of love.

A Psalm: for Depression

January 30, 20184 Comments

Mighty God, Powerful Saviour;

My heart is breaking at its very core.

When I look at the sinfulness and brokenness of this world,

the injustice and hypocrisy –

I just want to leave it all behind, forever.

My body is so tired and weary –

every movement aches

every motion is laborsome.

A knot sits in the pit of my stomach –

I’m nauseous.

I’ve stopped eating.

I wake during the night –

my sleep is restless, fragmented.

My brain has turned against me –

it has become my enemy.

It has betrayed me,

it is trying to kill me,

it wants me to die –

I have no greater enemy than myself.

I am lost,

I am torn,

I am broken,

I am hurting, and

I feel stuck in the depths of this pit of despair.

But you, Lord, you hear my cry,

you read my thoughts,

you feel my pain, my anguish –

and you never abandon me,

you never leave me alone in the mess.

Lord, please deliver me –

rescue me from myself

and the web of lies my brain has caught me in.

Lord, lift my soul from this darkness

and bring me into your glorious light.

Lord, show me your loving kindness –

your mercy and compassion.

Don’t leave me alone and abandoned in this lifeless pit.

Lord, please remind me

of your glorious deeds

and perfect promises

as you fulfil them every day.

I know the day of the Your return is near!

But please protect and preserve me

during these dark hours of the night,

that I may not be destroyed in my despair.

Watercolour cloud painted by Alexandra Ellen on 29.1.18

Painting as I enter 2017

December 31, 2016Leave a comment

My prayer for 2017 is Jeremiah 17:7-8; that each day I will place my trust and confidence in the creator, like a tree planted by a stream. May I continue to grow and bear fruit, even in the metaphorical heat! Praise the Lord for 2016; a year of mercy, grace, blessings, mourning, sorrow, growth and transformation.

#2017 #2016 #newyear #art #arttherapy #jeremiah1778 #faith #personalgrowth #spirituality

Disgraced: Sydney Theatre Company

December 15, 2016Leave a comment

Yup, 20th show this year and it was wonderful!! The script was funny, the cast was great and one of my favourites, *Rose Byrne* certainly didn’t disappoint.

#sydneytheatre #speedtheplow #rosebyrne #theatrenerd #theatregeek #play#aussietheatre #sydneytheatrecompany

I’m very grateful I could have the theatre as one of my mental wellness strategies… and still 2 more shows to go. How will I top this next year? #ayearoftheatre, maybe? #mentalwellness #laughteristhebestmesicine (at Roslyn Packer Theatre Walsh Bay)