Stop the Guilt

So, I woke up at 12:15pm. I don’t start work until 4pm. I am in pain.

Even though I could have gone back to sleep, my guilt got me out of bed. Now I’m up and in more pain. Too much pain to do any real work and to write any more in this blog. But will someone please take the guilt (of doing nothing) away?

Winter clothes shopping done! I might actually wear more than my flanno and hoodie this season. $234.65 worth of clothes for $108. That’s right, saved $126.65 – 54% off! Bargain is definitely my middle name! Get it? Alexandra “Bargain Hunter”! Loving my surname… and cheap clothes.

I wont let the fact they are all a size 22 upset me today!

Gluten Free

I’ve been gluten free for 3 weeks now, no change in the pain unfortunately.

This change in my diet is horrible, I miss soft, delicious fresh bread and the pink cupcake from my favourite cafe. Now, inevitable, which I have been avoiding has some – losing the dairy! Chocolate, ice-cream, hot chocolate and Irish Breakfast tea with a dash of skim milk – gone. I am amazed at myself for getting through my first day. An “everything free” packet chocolate cake will be one of my closest and most expensive friend, me thinks.

Eventually I will lose soy. sigh. Normal medicine hasn’t worked, so giving natropathy a try.Ā Endometriosis and PCOS really hasĀ infiltratedĀ its way into every part of my life – not even the food I eat is free from it.

Has anyone else with endo/PCOS found it helpful? Not just changing to anĀ eliminatedĀ diet, but also herb/vitaminĀ supplements?

And to leave on a positive note: I have found love and relaxation in The Mentalist and Boston Legal šŸ™‚

At Woolies, woman freaking out in the beauty isle as this little fella and regular customer looks for the animal food.

The Little Pieces: Endometriosis (re)Defined

thestoryofthepieces:

alexandraellen:

thestoryofthepieces:

alexandraellen:

Pretty sure the REAL meaning of endometriosis is:
ā€œlive in chronic pain until you hit menopause or get yourself a hysterectomy.ā€
OR
ā€œget your hopes up and have them crushed.ā€

Vote?

It’s amazing how one stupid post bring you so far down.
I don’t have a lot going for me…

I’m so sorry this brought you down…The point is, eventually the pain will stop. One day, somehow.

I know…I was just feeling crap, then I reached the endo tag and got about 876458165473 text posts with that main message of ā€œIt’s not gonna get better.ā€ I’m really sorry if I made you feel bad, or anything, I shouldn’t have ranted. lesson learned, just cause everyone needs to vent, doesn’t mean there isn’t good too.
One day it’ll change, for both of us. We’ll have our kiddies and ditch this stupid illness and our tumblr rants will be about sticky little kid fingermarks being left on our screens.
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Yes, our ranting will move from endometriosis toĀ whining kids, horrible teachers, bad education system and the endless washing šŸ˜› I actually had a good,Ā relativelyĀ pain-free day! So there is hope šŸ˜€

The Little Pieces: Endometriosis (re)Defined

She might have looked glamorous but Marilyn Monroe spent much of her life in chronic pain, suffering miscarriages and becoming addicted to pain killers – which eventually played a part in her death. She had endometriosis; a little understood but common disease of the female pelvis.

ABC Health & Wellbeing

The Little Pieces: Endometriosis (re)Defined

thestoryofthepieces:

alexandraellen:

Pretty sure the REAL meaning of endometriosis is:
ā€œlive in chronic pain until you hit menopause or get yourself a hysterectomy.ā€
OR
ā€œget your hopes up and have them crushed.ā€

Vote?

It’s amazing how one stupid post bring you so far down.
I don’t have a lot going for me…

I’m so sorry this brought you down, to bring people down wasn’t my intention. Your laparoscopy may give pain relief. My first one did – second one didnt, hence the negative reply. I’m waiting for babies so I can get rid of my uterus and have no endometrial tissue, so no endo!. The point is, eventually the pain will stop. One day, somehow.

The Little Pieces: Endometriosis (re)Defined

Endometriosis (re)Defined

allons-yalonso1:

alexandraellen:

Pretty sure the REAL meaning of endometriosis is:
ā€œlive in chronic pain until you hit menopause or get yourself a hysterectomy.ā€
OR
ā€œget your hopes up and have them crushed.ā€

Vote?

ā€œGet you hopes up and have them crushedā€ is a recurring theme in my life since Endo. Ā  Not just treatments failing to work, but having to constantly cancel plans and reevaluate my life goals. Ā It’s constant hope crushing.Ā 

You are so right! So much more than the pain!